In my head, I’ve almost called the new boyfriend by the separated but not divorced husband’s name.
The thing is, while I love this new person in my life, I still wish that I could mish mash him somehow with my ex-. I wanted to be someone who stayed married forever, to the same person who I loved for 19 years. I wanted to stay with my husband forever, but didn’t count on him forgetting to love me.
I haven’t screwed up yet and called him the wrong name. Hope it won’t happen. If it does, ooops.